Simply remember my favorite things...and then I don't feel so bad.

1. Water Balloons ( not sure why this is my first one)

2. Water Parks

3. Going on a roller coaster uphill right before the big drop

4. Flying on a trip solo

5. Drinking in airports

6. Reading a book so beautiful it makes me cry

7. Swimming in the Ocean

8. Body Surfing.

9. Kissing

10. Fresh Baked Bread

11. Butter, the real kind

12. Chocolate chip cookies dipped in milk

13. Being a democrat

14. Read/ Watching the news

15. Elections

16. Watching Political Speeches

17. Phone calls from a friend

18. Coming home to my laundry already folded

19. Having a clean house that I did not clean

20. Feeling the coolness of fall coming in

21. Tailgating. Football.

22. Cheering for my team, the Wolfpack!

23.Watching the ACC tournament and the NCAA

24. Experiencing a win for state in either football or basketball.

25. Tequila Shots. Petron.

26. Laying in bed during a violent thunderstorm

27. Meeting my children in my dreams

28. Making love after a long absence

29. Local Vegatable Stands.

30. Being a pescetarian

31. Dressing up

32. Ruffles

33. Wrap Dresses

34. Parties with a theme

35. Riding my Pink bike pepto

36. North Carolina State Fair

37. Driving down the interstate seeing the Raleigh Sky line

38. Cary Lazy Days

39. Reading great weightloss blogs

40. Working out so hard sweat is dripping from my body

41. 5:15am Spinning Classes

42. Chocolate, Dark

43. A cold Miller lite on a hot summer day with the people I love.

44. Making love, or the opposite, depending on my mood

45. Cuddling

46. Running about 1 mile

47. Swimming in a lake

48. Snow Skiing when it's not too cold

49. Road trips with my sister

50. Rock band

51. Playing the piano

52. Playing a cool cadence on the snare.

53. Coolwhip

54. Ortbitz original

55. Fireworks on the fourth of july

56. Disneyworld

57. Snorkling or Scuba Diving

58. Cruises

59. Warm Nights

60. John Legend in Concert

61. Dancing in the living room

62. Old Friends and New

63. Drunk Dialing

63. Waking up super early

64. Popcorn at the movies

65. Thanksgiving at my parent's house

66. All the presents I get at the Cook's house for Christmas

67. A cool glass of water

68. Coca Cola Classic- Can't beat the real thing.

69. A good love song

70. Country from the early to mid 90's

71. Traveling

72. Sitting on the couch with my hubby watching one of "our" shows

73. Prestemon reunion every other Christmas.

74. Homemade Macaroni and Cheese

75. Watching Dophins swim in the ocean.

76. Going out to eat at a fancy restaurant with a glass of wine.

77. Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwiches.

78. Life Long Love Stories

79. Freeze Pops Lime Flavored

80. Cottage Cheese with fresh tomatoes on top.

81. A spicy bloody mary

82. Spicy things in general

83. Make up and making up.

84. Being girly

85. Massages

86. Playing with my hair.

87. Going home early

88. Staying out late.

89. Holiday Parties.

90. Fitting into my size 10 clothes.

91. Margaritas

92. School

93. Watching my sailor leave his submarine and return to me.

94. Flowers delivered to me or given to me.

95. Laughing with friends

96. Diving off the diving board

97. Catching a Fish

98. Playing Cards

99. Playing any board game with friends

100. Deep Discussions

101. Silent Night with Candles at Church on Christmas Eve.

102. Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade.

103. Wheat toast with Strawberry Jam.

104. The smell of burgers on the grill..even if I no longer eat them.

105. Swinging (on a swingset)

106. Water Skiing

107. Marching Band Competitions

108. Broadway Shows

109. Date Night

110. Birthdays!

111. Wine Festivals

112. Local Coffee Shops

113. Daily Coffee Drinking

114. Dangly Earrings.

115. Crisp pickles

116. Diry Martinis

117. Curly Hair

118. Being a Blonde

119. Walking my dog.

120. Eating a piece of the cake above.

121. Blogging.

I am a runner

Saturday, June 27th 2009.

I completed my first 5k! I ran the whole thing without stopping at it took about 32 minutes!

Popsicles..Field Day..Don't want to talk about my weight gain.

I miss field day. You know having the whole day to run around playing games. Remember the dunking booth, water balloon toss, egg toss, sack races, races where you spinned around on a baseball batt?My favorite were probably the games that involved water balloons. BUT, the best part of field day was the popsicles! Don't you miss this kind? You could crunch up the ice and suck the juice of the bag. I have no idea what they are called AND I had a hard time finding a picture of them. DO they still make this kind? My favorite flavor of all time is the GREEN one. Lucky me there were always green popsicles available. I seemed to be one of the few elementary school aged kids that liked green the best. I LOVE lime! I came to the conclusion that maybe this was a preview of my love for alcoholic drinks with a hint of lime. All my alcoholic drinks now have lime in it. I also love Key lime pie! Okay so, i'm getting out of control here.

I used to also get this kind when I was at the pool. My sister and I pretty much spent EVERY SINGLE DAY at the pool in the summer. It didn't matter if it was sunny and hot or rainy. The worst thing about my job is working during the summertime. Sometimes I would rather be at the pool all day eating a popsicle or two. The green kind of course.

Pescetarianism

I'm thinking about changing things up, being a little different. I am thinking about becoming a Pescetarian. I think I spelled that right. Basically it is a term for a person who eats a vegetarian diet except includes seafood. In the past few days I have not eaten any meat. Actually I haven't had any meat since Saturday when I had a few chicken wings. We went to Wild Wings for a friends birthday and I had a few too many drinks that resulted in a few too many wings. SO after getting home I turned back into my health kick. Since Sunday, I have been eating black bean veggie burgers or southwest burgers. Tonight for dinner I had a vegetarian chili with "fake" meat and it was delicious. Plus it was only 150 calories. By doing this mainly vegetarian thing I have extra points left over ( btw i'm doing Weight Watchers) AND I AM NOT HUNGRY! I am filling up on black beans!



I've always told people that I don't really like meat and I could be vegetarian if I could at least have seafood and a steak and cheeseburger every once in awhile. Really red meat is not good for you and I rarely eat it so why not give it up all together? Chicken is healthy for for you but it is so boring. I don't really like the texture of chicken. I also don't like pork all that much. Aside from ham and bacon it seems like a waste. However, I RARELY eat ham or bacon. This has been a gradual thing for me. One thing I worry about is going out to eat and eating at peoples houses. Sometime it is a pain when the person doesn't eat meat. What about Thanksgiving??? All things to think about.


Maybe one day I will give up seafood too. It seems like being a pescetarian is just a half ass vegetarian and I hate doing anything half ass. I almost did give up fish after watching a special where the fish were FULL of plastic from swallowing trash ew ew ew.. BUT I LOVE LOVE LOVE SUSHI, steamed shrimp, fish in GENERAL is YUMMO...so I'm not ready to give them up yet. I also also am not SET on being a PESCETARIAN ( did I spell that right) but it is definately something I am thinking about.

Perhaps this is just a phase. But, I'm throwing the idea around.

Step one: Decide to go to the gym.

The hardest part of the journey is the first step. — Anonymous



The hardest part of working out is actually driving to the gym-Wendy



I FINALLY went back to the gym. My last post was February 26th and it may have been that long since my last appearance. First off I was really busy, and then I went on vacation..then I got this sickness death thing, then it had been so long I might as well stay a couch potato and not go to the gym. I didn't go yesterday so might as well not go today. Anyone else feel that way? Well I went! Yahoo! I also didn't eat like a hippo today either. So I am feeling like I ended the week great. I am going to start back my gym regiment tomorrow. If I go in the morning I feel so much better. Actually usually I feel like a truck ran over me and terribly hungry, but gym people talk about how great they feel so it must be true! So on my quest to be a runner I must act like a runner. I actually think that I don't want to be a runner. I just want to be able to run...miles..without stopping. I want to be athletic and fit, being a runner would just be an add on bonus.

Other than that nothing much is new. I RAN on the treadmill today! My sister says that real runners only run outside. F*CK you Holly Jeanne. Just kidding love you!! Running on the treadmill counts my time and my miles. When I run outside I never know how far and I just want to stop. I also can't pace myself like I can on a treadmill. Those are my current problems. This could be stopped by buying a watch to do the run walk thing that I do on the treadmill. I need to buy one ASAP. I went to Walmart today and forgot! See you at the gym!



PS-We did have steak for dinner and we bought a new leather couch. MOO!!

PSS- I realize this isn't a letter but I wanted to throw that tidbit in and it just didn't fit in my overall theme.

Lotions, Night cream...when you get to a certain age you start to think, "Hey i'm not going to be young forever..better start putting some moisturizer on in the evening." Well I went to Sephora a few weeks ago and bought a ton of makeup/lotions. Sephora was nice enough to provide me plenty of free samples, mainly of anti wrinkle and hydrating moisturizers. So, I had been trying different ones out. Fatgirlsleep reads on the little packet btw:

Releases dimple diminishers and soothing lavender for up to 6 hours

Dimples...okay I have cute dimples on my face this must be a facial moisturizer. So as a put it on my face it smells like lavender but feels very greasy...hmmmmmm dimple diminishers..Why would I want to get rid of my cute dimples??LIGHT BULB...ohhhhhhhhhh those dimples....WHOOOOOOOOOOPS.

You're not Fat!

"Well You're not Fat!" Those were the first words uttered from my doctor this morning at my appointment. Seriously, I'm not kidding. She walked in looked and me and said it. It was probably exactly what I needed to hear considering my recent obession with my weight. Okay, not so recent, but it has been my MAIN focus these days. The scale at home said 164 naked, 166 at the doctor's office. Wooohooo! I guess my running/working out/eating healthy/counting points has worked. I mean it DID work the last time haha. I'm trying to get down to 150 so I can get a cleaning lady/maid. Yep that is the deal I have going on with my husband. If I get down to 150 someone else can clean my house. Chris gets a great deal with a clean house and skinny wife, two things he is not getting now.



Anyways, I thought it was hilarious that my doctor said that. I was at my appointment to have my cholesterol checked and switch some medication. I guess she was wondering why I wanted my cholesterol checked if I'm not fat. After my appointment I went to Mcdonalds and had a mcgriddle. I hope she says the same thing at my next appointment!



PS- I bet you're suprised I said my weight on the internet!

I'm not a runner yet.

Yes I believe my last note, or BLOG was very motivational. So motivational that instead of running i'm sitting on the couch with my laptop watching Entertainment Tonight. However, I'm starting to think about running. It is in my mind just hasn't happenened yet. I was chatting with a friend online today she saw I was running and blogging. So, I have to be honest with my audience. The big RUN has not happened yet. It will though...

Now that I have confessed the issue I wanted to blog about today is motivation. My weight loss motivation has dwindled and my running motivation has not yet pushed me to head to the treadmill. However, I realize that I'm in charge of my own motivation. As a counselor at a college I am frequently flabbergasted at PARENTs who come in WITH their adult child (18-30) who they want to start college. The parent asks all the questions and the child ( yes 18-30 year old) says little or nothing. When I ask the CHILD the question the CHILD looks at the parent to answer. Really? This parent thinks that their child needs to be in college? Seriously..parents your child can't even come in for themselves..they have no motivation and you can't live their life for them! Moral of this story...if your child has no motivation you doing things for them will not increase it. Motivation comes from within. Have you found yours?

Running

I decided to start running. I also decided to start blogging. There are a few problems or issues to my new resolutions. I ordered the Book, The Complete Book of Running for Woman to inspire me. I hope I read it. Last time I wanted to do something ( become a writer) I ordered a book on how to write a novel. This blog is the closest thing I have come to my great american novel. I decided you have to actually enjoy writing to write a book. I'm pretty sure I don't want to write a book. I don't even like writing. I hate running more than I hate writing. Do you have to enjoy running to become a runner? People say that running is the easiest way to weight loss. There is also some mysterious runner's high that i've heard of. If I can be skinny and high, sign me up! My friend's who run, tell me to just start RUNNING. Easier said than done. Those are probably the same friends that say just eat better and exercise and you'll lose weight. All of this is of course true, but besides the point! I also think that people that run are a little weird, like some sort of club I never was able to join. The same thing goes for blogs. Bloggers are bizarre. Sometimes I read a blog and i'm like, REALLY thats what you think??WOW. I've told a few people tonight that I'm going start running and blogging. Bloggin why?? Nobody said that about running. I guess I better buy some shoes and stop editing this blog. However, I like to stalk blogs so why not? I'm also pretty sure that blogging is going to hold me accountable for my weight loss and running efforts.

The fact that I hate running should not stop me from being in the runner's club. Here are some excuses I have used:

1) I hate running but enjoy other workouts such as walking or spinning..so I don't need to join the runner's club.

2) I can't breathe out of my nose

3) My feet are too small for my body

4) I'm not an athlete

All these are crap and no reason not to join the runner's club. If I can spin or walk I can run right? I really can breathe out of my nose just not very WELL. People without two legs become runners, no excuse. My feet are small. I'm sure there are a lot of runners with size 7.5 and 5ft 7in. I'm not an athete and according to my book you don't have to be an athlete to run. SEE my book is helping me. Here's to the runner's club! See you at the race!