Lotions, Night cream...when you get to a certain age you start to think, "Hey i'm not going to be young forever..better start putting some moisturizer on in the evening." Well I went to Sephora a few weeks ago and bought a ton of makeup/lotions. Sephora was nice enough to provide me plenty of free samples, mainly of anti wrinkle and hydrating moisturizers. So, I had been trying different ones out. Fatgirlsleep reads on the little packet btw:

Releases dimple diminishers and soothing lavender for up to 6 hours

Dimples...okay I have cute dimples on my face this must be a facial moisturizer. So as a put it on my face it smells like lavender but feels very greasy...hmmmmmm dimple diminishers..Why would I want to get rid of my cute dimples??LIGHT BULB...ohhhhhhhhhh those dimples....WHOOOOOOOOOOPS.

You're not Fat!

"Well You're not Fat!" Those were the first words uttered from my doctor this morning at my appointment. Seriously, I'm not kidding. She walked in looked and me and said it. It was probably exactly what I needed to hear considering my recent obession with my weight. Okay, not so recent, but it has been my MAIN focus these days. The scale at home said 164 naked, 166 at the doctor's office. Wooohooo! I guess my running/working out/eating healthy/counting points has worked. I mean it DID work the last time haha. I'm trying to get down to 150 so I can get a cleaning lady/maid. Yep that is the deal I have going on with my husband. If I get down to 150 someone else can clean my house. Chris gets a great deal with a clean house and skinny wife, two things he is not getting now.



Anyways, I thought it was hilarious that my doctor said that. I was at my appointment to have my cholesterol checked and switch some medication. I guess she was wondering why I wanted my cholesterol checked if I'm not fat. After my appointment I went to Mcdonalds and had a mcgriddle. I hope she says the same thing at my next appointment!



PS- I bet you're suprised I said my weight on the internet!

I'm not a runner yet.

Yes I believe my last note, or BLOG was very motivational. So motivational that instead of running i'm sitting on the couch with my laptop watching Entertainment Tonight. However, I'm starting to think about running. It is in my mind just hasn't happenened yet. I was chatting with a friend online today she saw I was running and blogging. So, I have to be honest with my audience. The big RUN has not happened yet. It will though...

Now that I have confessed the issue I wanted to blog about today is motivation. My weight loss motivation has dwindled and my running motivation has not yet pushed me to head to the treadmill. However, I realize that I'm in charge of my own motivation. As a counselor at a college I am frequently flabbergasted at PARENTs who come in WITH their adult child (18-30) who they want to start college. The parent asks all the questions and the child ( yes 18-30 year old) says little or nothing. When I ask the CHILD the question the CHILD looks at the parent to answer. Really? This parent thinks that their child needs to be in college? Seriously..parents your child can't even come in for themselves..they have no motivation and you can't live their life for them! Moral of this story...if your child has no motivation you doing things for them will not increase it. Motivation comes from within. Have you found yours?

Running

I decided to start running. I also decided to start blogging. There are a few problems or issues to my new resolutions. I ordered the Book, The Complete Book of Running for Woman to inspire me. I hope I read it. Last time I wanted to do something ( become a writer) I ordered a book on how to write a novel. This blog is the closest thing I have come to my great american novel. I decided you have to actually enjoy writing to write a book. I'm pretty sure I don't want to write a book. I don't even like writing. I hate running more than I hate writing. Do you have to enjoy running to become a runner? People say that running is the easiest way to weight loss. There is also some mysterious runner's high that i've heard of. If I can be skinny and high, sign me up! My friend's who run, tell me to just start RUNNING. Easier said than done. Those are probably the same friends that say just eat better and exercise and you'll lose weight. All of this is of course true, but besides the point! I also think that people that run are a little weird, like some sort of club I never was able to join. The same thing goes for blogs. Bloggers are bizarre. Sometimes I read a blog and i'm like, REALLY thats what you think??WOW. I've told a few people tonight that I'm going start running and blogging. Bloggin why?? Nobody said that about running. I guess I better buy some shoes and stop editing this blog. However, I like to stalk blogs so why not? I'm also pretty sure that blogging is going to hold me accountable for my weight loss and running efforts.

The fact that I hate running should not stop me from being in the runner's club. Here are some excuses I have used:

1) I hate running but enjoy other workouts such as walking or spinning..so I don't need to join the runner's club.

2) I can't breathe out of my nose

3) My feet are too small for my body

4) I'm not an athlete

All these are crap and no reason not to join the runner's club. If I can spin or walk I can run right? I really can breathe out of my nose just not very WELL. People without two legs become runners, no excuse. My feet are small. I'm sure there are a lot of runners with size 7.5 and 5ft 7in. I'm not an athete and according to my book you don't have to be an athlete to run. SEE my book is helping me. Here's to the runner's club! See you at the race!